I’m taking a break from writing here, or anywhere for that matter. I have a son who is special needs who is going through a very difficult time. I am a single parent raising him and my daughter. Between working 40 – 50 hours a week, constantly having to monitor my son, and dealing with my own depression and anxiety, I just can’t dedicate the time and effort that is required to keep this blog working. Not that I have swamped by readers, mind you, but I feel a responsibility to those I do have to give them my best work, as good as that may be.
It is entirely possible that I may be back soon. Depression is a terribly debilitating disease. It keeps you from functioning and doing even normal, everyday things. It is stressful enough just making sure dinner gets ready, or that I balance the finances so that we have enough groceries to last until next payday and that the lights stay on. Add to that all the reading I have to do just to keep on top of issues and then actually formulating an idea for a blog entry and actually writing something worthwhile and you can see what I’m up against.
I’d had hopes of making a career of writing, but I can see that this will just have to wait. I can’t start now and then not be able to deliver when deadlines loom. It is irresponsible and self-defeating. I’m not giving up totally, but I have so much to improve on as a writer, I just can’t see how I can find the time and effort to improve even the basics of spelling and punctuation and grammar, never mind writing a cogent and compelling article.
I love the people I’ve met in the skeptical, humanist and atheist movements. Being involved has brought me great joy over the past year, but I just can’t see how I can take part in these movements when I can’t even manage my personal and family life. I had hoped I had found my voice and had something important to add, but I think I’m just one lone voice lost in a sea of many.
I want to thank everyone who has commented here. I hope I’ll be back soon, but only time will tell.